This was the song my Mother used to sing to me I still here it in my dreams sometimes. It's funny but sometimes I feel as if my dead family memebers talk to me, like they are reaching out for me... Like they never really died on that day. Sometimes they tell me to travel and find my place on this Earth.
I remeber hearing this song when I tried to take my life. I was absoultely sad and I felt disconnected from the earth. I just wanted to die. I remeber lying their in my bath and the bloody water all around me, I just kept hearing her voice willing me to go on.
I have no idea why I am telling you all this. It's just a feel like I can trust you even if I don't know exactly who you are. I miss Rwanda sometimes. I remeber my sister saying she wanted to visit our country. I feel like I've brought a little piece of home with me and that I can now share it with my sister.
Also I feel like my plan is going very well. I've got Alex on my side now and she is slowly slipping away from that fat man. I've got an ace on him that I'm not ready to show and I'm waiting for the perfect moment to reveal who he truly is. Once I speak the words there's nothing he can do...
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