Should I?

Joseph has been trying to get rid of me since I first arrived in that small house in the middle of hampstead he's been trying to uproot me. He knows that I know. He knows that I have the I could tell Alex. He knows I could turn his life upside down if I reveal what he did. He's trying to shock me, To "alienate" me and make me feel like I don't belong. He's tried to make me feel guilty like I was trying to steal his life and HIS daughter. Last time I checked she was MY sister before he came along. He's been racist to me saying that immigration police are coming for me. He has done everything in his god forsaken power to stop me from being apart of her life. 

Yet I feel like if I do speak the words that could make his world come crashing down I would be doing just as much damage as I would be doing if I kept silent. I don't know should I tell her. And should I even do it. Should I tell her in secret and not cause a drama about it or should I do it loud and proud and do a giant reveal in front of that bastard Joseph like on the show me and Alex watch the other day. What was it called again? Extreme makeover home?  Something like that yes. I adore the moments I spend with her. She makes me feel like the childhood I lost can still be with me. :) Haha I've never used a "smiley" before how entertaining! 4

Anyway back to the task at hand. I know I am the trigger that could cause this entire firebomb to go off. I want Alex for myself for she is my sister and I want the four years he spent ignoring back, Hell I want the 18 years of our childhood from him. I want... I want... I want I don't know what I want. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. Jesus christ. I in a foreign country trying to get revenge on a man who I thought was God but turned out to be a asswhole who stole my sister whilst we were being hunted and slaughtered. Not many people can say that about themselves "tbh".

My life is more complicated then that other show we watched what was that EastCoronationoakesdale? Okay now I know that's not right